Upstairs Neighbors ...

  • Oct. 9th, 2007 at 5:41 PM
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Anyone who has visited Anne and my new place on Lafayette realizes how absurb the subject line for this entry is.  There are only two floors to our building.  However, what you may not realize is that there are quite a few feathery friends living above our heads.  Every time I go out the back door, I very quickly remember that I should have made a lot of noise before coming out.  I step out, shut the door, and the next thing I know I have four or five pigeons flying out of the hole in the roof.  I swear one of these days I'm either going to be attacked by pigeons or pooped on.  One day a couple weeks back, I came in after a long day at school and as I opened the front door, I heard flapping of wings ahead.  I looked up and there was a pigeon perched on the lamp hanging from the ceiling on the first floor.  When I shut the door, the pigeon flew on upstairs and as I rounded the corner I saw that it found a new place to rest; on the lamp hanging outside our apartment door.  I wasn't quite sure what would happen if I went upstairs but I thought I'd take a go for it.  The pigeon just hopped right on through the attic door and we had a stare down - who would make the first move?  Not quite sure what to do - I had to share this startling discovery of the pigeon with Rebecca.  I finally went on upstairs, and the pigeon went on ahead and found his nest further on in the attic.  I'm not sure which is more disturbing, pigeons living in our attic or appliances that never seem to work when we need them to.  (for those of you at plates last week that realized our oven wasn't functioning part way through - we learned the secret.  Both the timer and the clock thing next to it have to have a matching time.  Then the second clock thing you move around and that's how long the oven will stay on.)  Complicated huh?
I'm not sure what it is about South City that attracts these feathered friends ... I've been wondering that lately.  Could it be the scent that Peter has realized is quite different from the central area.  Or maybe the smell of South City is of pigeons?  Still, if that is the case, it doesn't explain why so many pigeons in South City when I've never noticed them in any other part of St. Louis.

Any thoughts?
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Spanish anyone?

  • Aug. 29th, 2007 at 6:52 AM
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So The Freedom School has decided to add an after school program this year.  Or maybe I should say Charlie Dill has been gracious enough to start one up for the school.  We've had dance in the past and will be offering it this year as part of the after school program.  Also, students will have an opportunity to explore science, learn how to play fairly while playing together with puzzles and games, do a little arts and crafts, and learn Spanish.  That's where I come in.  Wowzers!  Teaching Spanish to a bunch of elementary students ... Can I just say I am feeling just a little bit intimidated.  Sure, I studied Spanish 4 years in high school, 3 years in college, took trips to Costa Rica and Spain in high school and lived and studied in Spain in college.  Sure I travelled to Tijuana, Mexico with high schoolers from first evangelical free in Manchester to be an interpreter two summers in a row.  Sure God used that experience hugely in my life and in the lives of the Mexicans in Tijuana.  But how in the world do you go about teaching a room full of 4 and 5 year olds, or a room full of 6 and 7 year olds.  Or my largest group which I will have this afternoon of 8 and 9 year olds?  Sing some songs?  Get out the puppets?  ACT A LOT!  Be pretty darn silly and maybe at times a little uncomprehendable.  This will be interesting.  I've just got to remember ... I'm the one that knows the Spanish - and the goal isn't for all of these kids to leave the after school program at any sort of proficiency level.  If the majority of the kids leave excited to learn languages, having fun learning Spanish, and they just happen to take a bunch of Spanish phrases and vocab with them, that will be okay.
We'll see how it goes.  My first group I have for an hour tonight.  And I have the two groups of younger students tomorrow for half an hour each.

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Tops and first day of school

  • Aug. 21st, 2007 at 6:10 PM
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I've been meaning to write now for a while.  It's been pretty hectic - with weddings this summer and moving and then getting ready for the school year.  I'm still staying at Jenny's and am not sure when Anne and my apartment will be ready.  Our landlord said that the goal would be the end of August/beginning of September but we haven't heard anything yet and the end of August isn't that far away.
It's been a bit of a transition moving to South City - one I'm not quite sure how excited I am about.  There's definitely good things but there's also things I just can't get used to.  Of course I've only been here now for two and a half weeks so some things take a little bit of time.  While thinking about all the things I don't like right now about living in South City I decided I needed to think about what I also like.  I came up with the top six for each.
Top 6 reasons I don't like living in South City:
1.  I don't run into people I know at Schnucks
2.  I live further away from the majority of my friends
3.  the commute is long
4.  I use up gas almost twice as fast
5.  I don't feel at home in South City
6.  I'm always lost
Top 6 reasons I like living in South City:
1.  I hear a lot of languages in Target
2.  the cart escalators at Target
3.  Rent is cheaper
4.  I'm closer to the few friends I didn't see often before
5.  I'll have lots of apartment space
6.  the building I will live in is a cool, old building

So today was the first day of school and I am soooo tiredd!  I feel like I could go to bed right now and sleep until tomorrow morning.  And I think I've used muscles that I haven't used since last year as I'm feeling pretty stiff.  But I'm thinking this is going to be a really good year.  I've got 15 kids in my class and I'm excited to have all of them.  The majority were really good listeners today and followed directions super well.  It makes me smile when I just get done teaching a procedure, we practice for ten or so minutes and then a half an hour later the kids are using what you just taught them in a very real and practical way.  Yea for first days of school where everyone has had at least a little experience with school!  Though, I sure hope they're not too fussy at home tonight; most of them didn't fall asleep during nap time.  Must be all the excitement.  First lunch at school and afternoon at school for many!  We'll see what tomorrow holds ... could be a little different.  Hopefully we'll get through a few more things too.  I think I overplanned by about an hour.  And I cut things out from last year ...  Oh well, better over planned than scrounging for more.  Though now I've got to rework the rest of the week.  Works out well during the procedure teaching to be super detailed and anal about things.  The kids know exactly what the expectations are this way.  One thing I was a little surprised about was how many didn't want to sing and dance this morning.  Took a little while to warm up.
Ahhh, kindergarten ...
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New #1 ...

  • Jul. 17th, 2007 at 9:46 PM
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Spending some time with my mom tonight - she was spending some time figuring out her own Myers-Brigg ... and I was remembering how fun it is to do personality tests ... just for the heck of it.  Anyway - I wanted my mom to do this one ... but she went in the other room to work on her quilt and to clean up for paper route tomorrow.  My love languages switched around a bit ... Both quality time and words of affirmation skipped ahead of physical touch ... could this be a result of not being around other touchy feely people as much this past year?  I don't know.

#1Quality Time--This can be expressed either through those intimate tete-a-tete discussions or via doing things together. It's possible to get a low score in this category because you have a strong preference for one form of Quality Time over another.
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#2Words of Affirmation--You need to hear praise to know you are loved and you may also prefer to express your affection verbally. Negative comments cut right to the bone. You want to hear that you're loved and how much and why.
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#3Touch--You want to give and/or receive affection physically. This may or may not center around sex.
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#4Acts of Service--You prefer to show your love through favors and chores and doing things for others. You feel put-upon and unappreciated when your efforts are taken for granted.
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#5Gifts--You are moved by presents and physical tokens of affection. It's the fact that someone is thinking about you enough to give you something that moves you. The objects are of secondary importance to the relationship and sentiment with which they were intended.
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I've got to say it is great to be in a theatre for a midnight showing of a huge blockbuster.  Coming in an hour early to find the place is already almost full.  Waiting expectantly for the time to slowly tick away before it is time for what you've been counting down to for days if not weeks.  Having teenagers chant across the theatre Gryfindor and Harry Potter in the minutes before the previews.  Applause when 15 minutes before the show is to start the movie theatre commercials come on the screen because it means time is growing close.  And then more applause when the previews actually start.  It's easy to see which movies will be hits in a room so big with so many excited to see the upcoming flick.  The previews that seemed worth seeing got large amounts of applause while others received claps from a few over eager clappers around the room.  And then when the movie was finally about to begin -- more clapping.  I'm sure the person running the show has never felt more encouraged about doing her job than she did last night.  There was definitely a lot of applause anytime Dumbledore arrived on scene and Harry got a lot of applause when he made some moves.  Don't want to give anything away now, would hate to be the one who gives things away.
Well worth the not getting to bed until after 3.
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Another try with Myers-Briggs

  • Jul. 9th, 2007 at 7:26 PM
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While catching up on people's blogs I ran across the Myers Briggs again on Tanya's blog.  Thought I would try it out again ... though I really need to make sure I keep the old ones if I want to see how I'm changing ... oh well.  It's kind of interesting anyhow.  

Your Type is
ESFJ
ExtravertedSensingFeelingJudging
Strength of the preferences %
11125022

You are:
  • slightly expressed extravert
  • slightly expressed sensing personality
  • moderately expressed feeling personality
  • slightly expressed judging personality
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I'm back!!!

Can I just say God still has much to do in my life?  More often that I want to happen and wish to admit I feel like abandoning ship.  Just crawling into a hole where I don't have to deal honestly with my sin and mess.  A hole where no one else sees the mess that is me and therefore won't run away when they find out who I really am.  Those are the lies that Satan tries to feed me.  And all too often, instead of pushing for the truth of who I am in Christ, I get weighed down by past patterns I have had of relating to people - times in which people have abandoned me and more so I'm discovering that I have misunderstood ways people tried to relate to me and care for me and have pulled away and abandoned ship myself.  Doesn't this seem to be the theme?  ... when things get tough - hide ...  It's something I'm continueously working on.  Perhpas that's why Peter Kuo's song Broken Chain that is inspired by my poem by the same title spoke to me so much this afternoon.  Crazy how God works like that isn't it.  He is so faithful to us, speaking to our hearts all the time in ways that draw us to Himself ... in sermons, music, through our friends, His word ... sometimes I forget how amazing God is.  I start to take things for granted - I really don't wish to.  I long to hear His voice and know His love in a way in which I would stop forgetting what He has done and what He continues to do.  It seems strange that I would have written a poem four years ago and forgotten it enough that it would speak to me in such a way as if I had never heard it before ... but I guess that's what happens when I wrote nearly 100 poems that year.  They just flowed like crazy.  Most of them were all about the same themes and poetry was mostly my entire journal - just whatever I was thinking or feeling came out in poem form.  But hey, whatever.  I'm grateful that the Lord put it on Peter's heart to create his song after reading my poem ... I enjoy what he did with it.

Here it is for others to enjoy as well ...

www.myspace.com/greenscreenterminal  - You have to click on the song Broken Chain to hear that song.  Also here is my poem that Peter used to create the song.  http://geocities.com/paz2003/brokenchain 

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May. 9th, 2007

  • 6:20 PM
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Only 13 days of school left!  That is pure craziness!  Today's the first day that I have said I'm ready for the year to be over.  Sure, for a while there before spring break I was definitely in dire need of a little fresh air away from five-year-olds.  Today was another one of those days.  I'm in need of a lot of patience, calmness, and perhaps a bit more authority with one student in particular to be able to finish the year.  Oh, Lord please grant it to me.  The kids are excited that we're so close to the end of the year.  One girl said when school's out she's going to ride her bike every day.  Who can blame them?  I too, am dreaming of days after this month is over.  I'm not quite thinking about this summer and what I'll be doing.  I've been thinking about planning ... about what my classroom will look like next year ... how I want centers to work differently ... what it will be like to have a full class of 15 students ... integrating themes more than this year ... figuring out how to use the reading curriculum better after the first year with it ... thinking about field trips ... wanting to map out next year.  Great news for The Freedom School!  All of the money that was needed to finish this school year was raised in just over a month's time.  We're now working towards next year.  I found out that all of the money that came in was all donations that people had already planned on giving before we started getting the word out about needing more money.  The way God provided this helps me to remember that God knew what He was doing all along.  There was absolutely no reason to worry; he had it taken care of without anything we had to offer.  And isnt that how it is?  We don't really ever have anything to offer to God other than ourselves.  The Freedom School belongs to the Lord. 

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a little mad libs anyone ...

  • May. 2nd, 2007 at 4:09 PM
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After reading Tanya Mark's blog I thought I'd do a little mad libbing myself ... here it is.

My favorite tiger

Kim is the best tiger in the world. (S)he is quiet except when hungry or when (s)he wants to go play in the Loop. Kim loves to eat hot dog, and will do tricks for a bite of it. This tiger is a friendly tiger who enjoys jumping up and sitting on my arm. That makes me skips. It's fun to watch Kim leap into the computer and spin in circles trying to catch (his/her) heart. Kim likes to sleep a lot, and looks so enormous while sleeping. One of my favorite things about Kim is (his/her) contented Grrrr. It is music to my ears.

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Apr. 25th, 2007

  • 7:20 AM
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Something Mike Parker said last night during our meeting after school is really causing me to wrestle.  If the school closes what will I believe is true about God?  It will be hard.  I think so many things come into play.  God's heart for the students.  So many don't have the chances and the choices.  They'll end up going to public schools in the city with awful education.  That would be pretty sad.  What about me - what would I do - where would I go?  I no longer hold a teaching license because of not being accredated.  How easy would it be to get a new one?  If the school does close, I would grieve deeply.  But what does that say I'm putting my trust in?  I remember making the decision a few times at the end of college and that first year out; that I would not take the easy path.  I consciously chose that I would take the path that meant identifying with the poor.  I would take the path of choosing to live on less and give of myself more.  I would choose to pursue righteousness.  I chose these things consciously knowing my motivation at the time was to heighten my need to depend on God.  In this desert place I'm in right now with so many unknowns in the near future - and almost everything in my life feeling completely unstable - I am seeing my pride.  My flesh keeps wanting to take the upper hand and I am seeing that I don't often times trust ONLY in the cross.  I try to add what I need to trust in.  I add my need to control things around me.  I try to add a reliance upon others always being there.  I try to pretend betrayal will never happen.  Perhaps because its such a real factor in my story I want to hope it won't happen again.  But it always does - because we're sinners in need of God's grace.  I don't always allow myself to just be broken - don't allow myself to feel complete incontrol.  But that's what I have - no control over the future of the Freedom School and no control over what next year will look like at all.  I'm not ready to believe that the school will close, I've seen God's faithfulness in provision to the school.  I've seen how He's blessed countless lives through it.  I look at the children who would be going to public schools next year and plead on their behalf - for mercy, love, and righteousness to be extended into their lives.  I still think about what next year will be like with the kids in pre-k this year and am beginning to plan in my head next year.  But I need to be willing to confront the possibility.  What would happen if the school closed?  One thing is for sure, I have many idols that my heart has taken ahold of that I would sure like God to get rid of in me before we come to that place.  Theres so many things I need to surrender.  Oh Lord, help me to get my head around my sin and name the ways I place my trust in things other than ONLY you.
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